A couple of weeks ago, Janet over at Slice of Pink introduced her readers to Vanity Fair’s Proust Questionnaire. It is said to reveal your true nature so, of course, I had to check it out. Turns out, it’s actually really hard to complete if you are taking it seriously [which I most definitely was] and it takes a lot of heart. Do you have heart? Then try it out for yourself. If you’re feeling just a little too disheartened lately [see what I did right there? genius.], then you can just take the interactive version on Vanity Fair’s website. Either way, I want to know about you!

Without further ado, here it is, my heart and soul.

1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?

Love all around. All you need is love.

2. What is your greatest fear?

That another one of the most influential people in my life will die before I get to share my wedding day and the birth of my children with them.

3. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

Not standing my ground. I melt.

4. What is the trait you most deplore in others?


5. Which living person do you most admire?

I’m not going to go cliche and say my mom or dad, but that’s mostly because they suck at life. And I’m not going to be even more of a cliche and say Barack Obama. So who else is there? I think it’s safe to say that my siblings, in one way or another, are the strongest people I know.

6. What is your greatest extravagance?

Having the internet in the palm of my hand is really extravagant. I am sometimes ashamed of myself.

7. What is your current state of mind?

The state of mind that I am most often in is longing. I’m rarely just content. I find content to be rather boring, actually.

8. What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

Beauty. The mainstream view of beauty that we are all brainwashed in some way to buy into.

9. On what occasion do you lie?

Mostly when trying to convince myself that I am feeling something that I should be, when in fact I am not feeling that way at all. I lie to myself a lot.

10. What do you most dislike about your appearance?

How dramatically my appearance changes with makeup on. It’s a shame, because I know I’m beautiful. I shouldn’t have to wear it. But I do. And I dislike that.

11. Which living person do you most despise?

My father. But that’s not saying very much, I try not to despise very often.

12. What is the quality you most like in a man?


13. What is the quality you most like in a woman?


14. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

I start sentences with “and” a lot. I say “like” far too much as well.

15. What or who is the greatest love of your life?

This is an obvious one. TSC.

16. When and where were you happiest?

2006. Every day that I was with him.

17. Which talent would you most like to have?

I would like people to think that I am kind and approachable at first glance. If that’s a talent.

18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I would like to have the willpower to always do what I say I will do, even if it hurts. And to close the door on things that are no good in my life and never look back.

19. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Breaking the cycle. Showing my siblings that there are other ways to live than getting pregnant in high school and never really achieving any of your goals.

20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?

Achilles, because I’m really strong and stubborn. But if you find my weak spot, I’m a mess.

21. Where would you most like to live?

Everywhere, for at least a night.

22. What is your most treasured possession?

My photos. And I take them for granted far too often. Also, sentimental pieces of jewelry.

23. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

Unrequited Love.

24. What is your favorite occupation?

One where I don’t have to work.

25. What is your most marked characteristic?

My outspoken nature. Or my nose. For some reason everyone always points out my nose.

26. What do you most value in your friends?

Honesty, Trust, Fidelity.

27. Who are your favorite writers?

Brian Andreas, Jodi Picoult, Dan Brown.

28. Who is your hero of fiction?

Her name is Dicey Tillerman. She walked her brothers and sister from Peewauket, Connecticut to Crisfield, Maryland after their mother abandoned them in a parking lot with no money or directions. She was thirteen.

29. Which historical figure do you most identify with?

I try to identify with myself.

30. Who are your heroes in real life?

My Grandma, even though she died. She changed my life in ways I will probably never understand. And my Papa for being right there with her no matter what, and not changing too much after she was gone.

31. What are your favorite names?

I like boys names for girls, and bible names for boys.

32. What is it that you most dislike?

About what? there are lost of things in the world to dislike in many, many categories. It’s all about specifics.

33. What is your greatest regret?

I’d like to say that I don’t have regrets, but that’s just a cliche that people use to shield from the real, raw truth. I have lots of them, not the least of which is every moment that I don’t spend following my heart.

34. How would you like to die?

Peacefully, without controversy, and with certainty that those who are closest to me know exactly what they mean to me.

35.     What is your motto?

I have many, it just depends on my state of mind. For now, I’ll leave you with “Be honest, even when it hurts.”

And, in case you were wondering, The interactive version categorized me as answering 96.21% like Hugh Hefner and 85.31% like Andrew Weil.